HA. Wasn’t expecting that last one now weren’t you? But yeah, this is a little bit of a vent comic and an inspiration comic. Ever since I have told you about my mom divorcing my former step-father, and that I needed to take up some more of the bills for each month, this last month has been a bit of downer and energy burner. Thinking that I would be able to get my dues done and everything, a lot of unexpected things got hit inn my way, such as unheard payments here and there that made me burrow from my brother for my rent of last month. also with the fact that I also felt a bit down that I was only able to get out a single commission from last month, that it kind of give up on myself with commission stuff. Also, even after spending 40 hours a week, I still don’t get that much each week because one of the unexpected fees I had to pay was a high union pre-fee since I got started on my job, and now am paying a post-fee until it reaches that 300 dollars that is slowly and is enjoying taking its sweet time getting off of my shoulders. So with this much stress on me, I have been feeling down, and a few good family members have fallen prey to my uptightness and anger of this all, which I do regret much of. I also have been feeling that I have been a bit too much of fanart, and wanting to focus more on my own stories, except I don’t have any inspiration for any of my own stories, anymore, which is sad. Very sad.
HOWEVER, ever since last month has ended, I have felt that things are going to get a lot more better! I now know what to look out for with the expenses, so that’s good. I am also am planning on finshing off everything that people have requested for tonight and through out the weekend and am now wanting to focus on more of my outerlimits, since hey guess what, I am looking for an art school out here! The internship that I told everybody about earlier this year unfortunately didn’t work out, and many other place won’t take you in wihtout a degree, so that is what i must do. Thankfully, I am not doing this alone, as I am being helped by some really great people who know their way through the animation and illustration fields. As for which school I might want to go to out here in California, I am going on a whim and going to submit to every school, yep, calarts, csun, gnomon, woodbury etc. So you’ll be seeing alot of new art that goes over the borders for me. Also, speaking of borders, and art and along with my own stories, I have one that I have had in my head for about a good year now, and now am thinking of wanting to throw it out there. Unfortunately, I have made the decision of completely my other stories and characters, Wrench and Gun, Frank, Rocky, and Charlie, to rest for now. I just don’t have any more interest in them, so through out tonight, I am going through my tumblr, and my deviant art, and going to put a lot into storage. Believe me, I am still a really big Steven Universe and Curiah City fan (it should also be concerning too,) and will continue showing my obsession of them. As for commissions, still consider it a weekly thing only it will be EVERYWHERE. No shit. I am going to post on here, my da, fb, everywhere. I hope you can get used to seeing it everywhere.
So that is what has been happening with my life. Since I am now becoming an adult, and am taking on more responsibilities and duties, it is scaring me a lot, but just because it scares me doesn’t mean that I am going to call quits on it. Life is meant to be scary, in more ways than it should, but there are always ways to make life not so scary any more. That is what I am going to do, make it not so scary!